Monday, December 29
Friday, December 26
showup
Wednesday, December 17
Monday, December 15
Thursday, December 11
Monday, December 8
i am privilege
i wondered, just now, why am i spending time writing a paper on making things when i could be making more things?
Thursday, December 4
Tuesday, November 25
Monday, November 24
E_MERGE_N_C meeting
alexis sent me a package which i have to distribute the contents of at a gathering of all of us, so, we need to get together before xmass break to see what she sent us from her travels.
how does next week sound?
Thursday, November 13
Tuesday, November 11
Friday, November 7
Sunday, November 2
A CALL TO ARMS
our space has been lost in the waves of formal- institutional- climbing to the top- busy-busy-busy bullshit.
we need to reclaim our special connections, we need to fuse our creativity once more.
RTRI WE MUST MEET MORE.
RTRI WE MUST MAKE THINGS.
RTRI WE MUST FUCK SHIT UP/EACH OTHER AGAIN
if you are in agreement with this, respond here.
what do you need more of from each of us? what do you need more of yourself?
TIME
PLACE
DATE
NOW.
let us not get caught up in the excuses we give ourselves on a daily basis as to why we are not doing. let us end our own tyranny to ourselves. let us be glittermashdemiterrorists!!!!!!
Saturday, November 1
Friday, October 31
Wednesday, October 29
the(sis)
so i thought that i was really on top of things, until i began to take feminist theory.
i think that i was stronger and more successful without it.
is this what happens? when you get into this stuff? that you loose your agency and your confidence and yourself in the name for a particular kind of higher learning? i thought the point was to feel more empowered, feel more a sense of yourself, get to know yourself kinda thing.
i am comfortable with myself, what i am uncomfortable with is other women telling me I shouldnt comfortable with myself be for a lot of reasons, and that i am, in fact, better off in this knowledge of reactionary anger that they give me.
well i say fuck you feminist theory: you have made me a walking mind fuck and loose aspects in my life.
(******space*******)
so i am doing this project where i write something over and over and over (big surprise huh?) on a large scroll that probably cannot be hung up on the wall because it will be so big, and i will unveil it during a show. oh i know what it references, but for me the catharsis of the event lies not in how it is reacting to something grandeur and universal, but how it can be purged from my body by making it public and physical.
and i love you.
Tuesday, October 7
i wanna look into yer soul
loves,
i'm working on a project right now where i need the time you were born and the location.
long story short
Saturday, September 27
Friday, September 19
Wednesday, September 17
Sunday, September 7
Tuesday, September 2
sorry
i have just been formally introduced to existentialism.
woopsy- daisy.
a bunch of little worms to form one bigworm.
Sunday, August 31
Tuesday, August 26
Thursday, August 14
green porno
so nash showed this to me last night.
also this:
http://www.cnn.com/2008/SHOWBIZ/TV/05/05/isabella.rossellini/index.html
Wednesday, August 6
Friday, July 25
Also
Body & Mind. Apparently they think that what makes their nude photos of women "more beautiful" than others is that they have moral value...."nudes with a wholesome twist", as they say. Their philosophy of feminine beauty, or "super beauty" (again, their words), basically says that female beauty is a literal representation of our values. And, as the founder claims, "When female beauty is attacked, it is by twisted monsters bent on destroying all human values, the things female beauty represents to all of us."
DISCUSS PLZ
Daddy and I
O Zhang, photographs adopted Chinese daughters and their Western fathers. Meant to bring up issues of interracial gender roles in the family, but every time I see these pictures all I see are precursors to child porn...but I probably wouldn't feel that way if the images were of a Chinese father with his Chinese daughter, or a white father with a white daughter. At the same time, though, I feel like a lot of these images are set up to make them look a little sexual, or at least possessive. Father-daughter relationships are hard to portray without some element of creepiness.
Saturday, July 19
cryingwhileeating.com
Eating: Coldstone cheesecake ice cream with graham cracker pie crust
Crying because: Fuck you, Batman!!
Wednesday, July 9
Saturday, July 5
independence day
i spoke to you in the shower today
but i got no response.
i miss you.
where are you guys?
Sunday, June 29
Tuesday, June 24
birds birds birds
this came from my latest crackpot tattoo idea: bear walking on my shoulder, head facing away from my spine. puffin in flight behind bear, sparrow in front of bear and various other birds of that type to wrap around my shoulder and arm.
so i came across this blog. and it is awesome.
enjoy!
Sunday, June 22
Thursday, June 19
Sunday, June 15
Friday, June 13
(beat beat beat beat) forever ago...
so i would like to propose an idea. i think we should have another art show toward the beginning of the school year. i think that the students who know us will attend and i think it would give incoming students a chance to see how new college projects can be awesome. blah blah blah. everyone knows the reasons why an art show at the top of the year is good.
anyhow, i think we should all be working on stuff this summer for it. if we want to put on a show. for example, i am compiling stuff for a video (though i dont know if it will be done by then), some 2D pieces and some performances; maybe an installation.
i think it would also be interesting to do some kind of cataloging. for example, i have been drinking about four to five times a week. (whether that be two beers or eight, it doesnt matter)and i have been thinking about saving them and altering them somehow, maybe all one color with a label on time and date. the same thing for cigarettes. i know ive been smoking more now because i dont have to be in class, ect. saving those boxes. how many did i go through over the course of the summer? by seeing that all there at once, how will that affect my view on my personal habits, etc. hell, even masturbating or counting the number of times i check my facebook: some kind of habit catalog. ok. so i think it would be neat to see if you guys started that too. maybe we could construct an entire room out of these cataloged habits from the summer.
lemme know what you guys think about that stuff: the beggining of the year art show, if we should be working on stuff for it, and if each of us should be cataloging something about our summers.
ok i love you!
Monday, June 9
Saturday, June 7
Wednesday, June 4
on standby
Well, I've missed my flight to Texas & the Homeland Security Warning is orange.
The news is on. A woman took 2 of her 7 kids with her to sell heroin. No babysitter.
This is stupid. This terminal is under construction. Yep. Cloudy skies over Boston Deana.
There's a guy in a hardhat looking worried at some blueprints. A tornado killed 7 people and destroyed a bank and Ed McMan may lose his Beverly Hills home. And the drop out ceiling is missing. Ducts.
I wonder what Jill Scott is up to. Singing probably.
Nash. What's the first book we're reading? Maybe I can buy it at the News & Gifts.
"Five years ago we stayed in Miami for 3 days and it rained every day." "Oh...."
A guy just walked right in front of me and pulled a Starbucks cup out of a deep trashcan. How'd he know it was there? He's drinkin' it.
Fewer planes means fewer seats for us. 18% domestic cuts.
Happy birthday to Angelina Jolie and Dr. Ruth.
Monday, June 2
this guy
so i was bored and looking around port performance website and i thought about how performance art maybe differs from other performance because of the consideration of visual reiments and overall aesthetic quality that can compare more to sculpture or painting than it can set design, costume design, or general conventional theatrics. (yes, i know we have covered this topic extensively)
but i am still interested in finding examples of this difference.
i think this guy does that. moreover, i think port performance stuff does that too or, at least, that seemed to be the case for the students who participated in the berlin show last year.
anyhow, i think this is good to look at, and for me, a way to continue to explore how performance can be all sorts of things, and that it doesnt have to remain in the realm of, or reaction to, conventional theatre.
if you are bored or wanna look at stuff, look at this and tell me what you think.
love you babies!
Thursday, May 29
Wednesday, May 28
ATEAST
http://arsonisnoway.livejournal.com
I like to look at what other artists are making.
I don't get any of this. and that's a weird feeling- feeling good about that.
and I'm not posting this to bash Steve McLaughlin, whoever he is.
except some of his ideas are cool. and some of his pictures are cool.
Thursday, May 22
david bennett
David Bennett is really strange. I think he lives in his head and comes out of it every now and again when he has to in order to interact with others. But even when he does that, I wonder how much he still remains inside David’s world, the place that is swirling and visual and funny.
So when David does a performance, sometimes it is well thought out, like his Vivisexing project, other times it is completely made up and he is phoning it in, an example of this is when he crawled to the side of the couch in the study room and tried to push the couch with his legs to the other side of the room. Granted, we all liked it, but we knew he just came up with the performance a few seconds before he did it. And maybe that is ok. I think david’s sometimes haphazard way of performance is a good balance for those of us who take it really seriously. David reminds us that there are really silly and dry things about this medium of expression, and that in doing so, it reflects life.
David also really likes parties. He loves going to and throwing them. He makes some of the best posters for a dumb Friday night party that I have ever seen. Some of us think that the last art show was shit, but David really liked it because of how it made people feel and he likes to entertain. As a matter of fact, I am on board with him on making a alternative space tutorial in order to find more places for art parties. I think that when David approaches performance, he considers the party. He likes to feel a kind of satisfaction in everything that he does, even if his projects look like they lack a sense of satisfaction, like his Vivisexing performance. A strange kind of satisfaction happened between the two characters, even though they were sad.
David Bennet loves music as well. I think that he sees words as lyrics and motions as sound. For one performance, he played music, and at the art show, he developed that idea further. He likes ambient sound that swells and repeats. I think that his newer performances will most definitely include this concept.
David’s performances, like his 2D work reflect a kind of inner world that he sometimes gives us access to, like when he repeated the phrase “tiny horses” for an entire class. We didnt know where that came from, but he was so amused by something about that phrase or image the phrase made that he just repeated it. His music is personal and internal too, he never engages the audience. And even his video for this semester was about something only he was going to look at.
All this internal world stuff makes David and interesting fellow. People are drawn to him and this shtick, he doesn’t disappoint either; I still cant figure him out and I am around him a lot
western
For this video project I wanted to explore a few different concepts. The most obvious being western, but I also wanted to simply begin to understand the medium of film making as well as attempt to undo myself in icon form. I will begin by discussing how this film project reflects “western” themes and then move on to the other concepts involved.
My designated week for mod two was western theme. Fo r this, I decided to divide the theme into two major ideas. The first idea was based on a type of “Hero With A Thousand Faces” narrative in which the ‘lone ranger’ was one that the western film highlighted, but was prevalent in much of American culture. The second idea was the icon of the western: the masculine form, the gun, and the justice. The two, I think, coincide, but I wanted for us to look at films with those ideas in mind. How does Kill Bill reflect these concepts just as much as Outlaw Josie Wales? When is the image stronger than the narrative, or how do we apply the cowboy idea to “heros” in the local paper?
With that in mind, I wanted to make a performance where I “killed” myself. I had a face off with myself and lost. But my issue with this was whether or not the physical me should die or the video me. Each ending had merit and each ending could reflect that western showdown, but the good guy should always win, and here, that line was faint, if not nonexistent. I liked that conflict, but once I did the performance, I thought about how there could be all these outcomes, all these chances because I could fluctuate between good and bad. For the western, I think, that dichotomy must exist I could become good or bad based on the way I handled the gesture of pulling the gun out. And that is where the idea for a longer video came into play.
For the video, and like a few performances I have done, I wanted to dissect and explore the various ways one gesture can shift and change. So I pulled the gun out a lot in front of the camera and played with how that movement can grow and imply a number of things. Here, I think I definitely covered the icon component of westerns, while at the same time, responding to other video and performance artists. I think that this project was similar to Hannah Wilke’s videos, such as her film Gestures and So Help Me Hannah. My piece is similar to Gestures in that I attempt to explore/ exploit a single movement over and over, confronting the camera and engaging the viewer. In So Help Me Hannah, Wilke walks around the city naked with a gun, implying gender roles and the power of the gun, I think my video is similar in that I reference the image of female with phallus, but I try to negate a completely female form by only showing myself from the shoulders up, clothed.
I wanted to create a kind of narrative using the clips I gathered. The first chapter was confrontation, in which I stare down the opponent. The second chapter was preparation, getting ready to duel, to kill, to defend. The third chapter was posing, an homage to characters like Travis Bickle; funny and strange and threatening. The fourth chapter was shooting. The fifth chapter was recognition, and this came as either satisfaction or fear or guilt. The sixth chapter returned to the first, only now it was confronting the action, unsure whether or not the action was good or bad.
I think the result was a myriad of forms, pictures, and gestures that derived from one iconic image. I like that. However, I am still interested in how that can be interactive. How can I shoot myself in video or live that can create a dynamic narrative? How can I be more selective in my clips so that the powerful images really stand out? I do not want to copy those clips from films directly. I don’t feel like I need to. My audience knows those images so well that I only need to reference them. However, I think there are editing choices I could have made that would be more cohesive, such as how my sepia and black and white are used. This is a work in progress for me, and I want to see how this vast idea can become tighter and more effective.
Friday, May 16
Friday, May 9
cleaning
i want to go back to reading.
organizing rules, but i am glad the heyday of "corridoors" is over.
but, a few notes,
i think that though we could have condensed the space a bit more, meaning, to make all art fit into those cramped space, the show was visually alright. people engaged with the show as a kind of treasure map, and i think nash and kim's installations really aided that idea. people saw the space differently, but i dont think we transformed it in any way.
also, fuck new college, i am definitely on board for a kind of alt space for art shows. lets think about that possible tutorial for fall...
ok so the performances: nash and alexis' i think was very successful. a large enough crowd gathered and, since they had the experience, i think that it ran smoothly as well. kim and melenie's cigarette piece was also good, again, drawing a small crowd but maintaining a very clear performance structure. i think jared's piece was a nice progression from the last performance, but it still lacked the sense of control that the performance ultimately revolves around. visually it was also nice, however, i am unsure about how jared wanted to deal with the material he presented. i think that when you isolate something like porn, there are a lot of implications at play, especially when said porn is connected to a body and sex.
my piece needs some work.
i was happy with my installation. i might finally put that little treasure to rest.
ok, it is 4 am and clearly i have not assimilated back to non-art show hours, so i am going to try to sleep now, and get excited about new things tomorrow.
Thursday, May 8
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Tuesday, May 6
today i
watched a polish movie, saved a baby bird, did a headstand, mushed gak-like clay onto my chest, made a sign for bongs, and fell in love with a western themed radio show.
it certainly has been a bowl of oranges kinda day.
Monday, April 28
consistently impressed by liars
this projection thing is getting pretty big
check out the snowden video "like bullets" for more
Saturday, April 26
Thursday, April 24
Wednesday, April 23
Monday, April 21
Saturday, April 19
Cinema of Transgression
Cinema of Transgression Manifesto
by Nick Zedd
We who have violated the laws, commands and duties of the avant-garde; i.e. to bore, tranquilize and obfuscate through a fluke process dictated by practical convenience stand guilty as charged. We openly renounce and reject the entrenched academic snobbery which erected a monument to laziness known as structuralism and proceeded to lock out those filmmakers who possesed the vision to see through this charade.
We refuse to take their easy approach to cinematic creativity; an approach which ruined the underground of the sixties when the scourge of the film school took over. Legitimising every mindless manifestation of sloppy movie making undertaken by a generation of misled film students, the dreary media arts centres and geriatic cinema critics have totally ignored the exhilarating accomplishments of those in our rank - such underground invisibles as Zedd, Kern, Turner, Klemann, DeLanda, Eros and Mare, and DirectArt Ltd, a new generation of filmmakers daring to rip out of the stifling straight jackets of film theory in a direct attack on every value system known to man.
We propose that all film schools be blown up and all boring films never be made again. We propose that a sense of humour is an essential element discarded by the doddering academics and further, that any film which doesn’t shock isn’t worth looking at. All values must be challenged. Nothing is sacred. Everything must be questioned and reassessed in order to free our minds from the faith of tradition.Intellectual growth demands that risks be taken and changes occur in political, sexual and aesthetic alignments no matter who disapproves. We propose to go beyond all limits set or prescribed by taste, morality or any other traditional value system shackling the minds of men. We pass beyond and go over boundaries of millimeters, screens and projectors to a state of expanded cinema.
We violate the command and law that we bore audiences to death in rituals of circumlocution and propose to break all the taboos of our age by sinning as much as possible. There will be blood, shame, pain and ecstasy, the likes of which no one has yet imagined. None shall emerge unscathed. Since there is no afterlife, the only hell is the hell of praying, obeying laws, and debasing yourself before authority figures, the only heaven is the heaven of sin, being rebellious, having fun, fucking, learning new things and breaking as many rules as you can. This act of courage is known as transgression. We propose transformation through transgression - to convert, transfigure and transmute into a higher plane of existence in order to approach freedom in a world full of unknowing slaves.
go to ubu and watch their movie "mommy mommy where's my brain?"
Wednesday, April 16
Tuesday, April 15
Saturday, April 12
Friday, April 11
Thursday, April 10
Wednesday, April 9
Vaginal Creme Davis
I dont know.
But, if you put headphones into the library computers and move the mouse up and down it sounds like you're playing an ATARI game. Like pacman or something.
Thursday, April 3
WARNING FOR GAY BOYS
ok, you guys.
you should watch this.
it's kind of long, but worth it.
i'm sort of in love/hate with this women right now.
mostly love though.
let's talk about it in class.
Tuesday, April 1
Collage in 2020
(1) Yesterday Barry warned us not to get too attached to the internet because it could "go at any time."
(2) It takes Barry 42 minutes to check his email.
Monday, March 31
Sunday, March 30
[and this] Christopher Olszewski
CHRISO
a scene
[The stage is empty except for a large washer and dryer set down-center. Both are covered in beer bottles.]
[Professor Barry Freedland's nerves are a mess. Earlier in the day he had been put off when, having instead to stand by while his students yelled at imaginary children and tortured themselves, Chris, who was supposed to be keeping him company was out cavorting with another member of the art department. Now he stands, well-dressed, in front of a small crowd of twenty or so. He tries to speak, but all that comes out are small, red hearts, dripping in his lunch.]
Barry: Excuse me. [clears throat] I'm pleased to introduce my friend Chris Olszewski.
[Barry wipes his mouth and shakes the traces of his gushing from his good shoes.]
[A low rumbling begins to separate itself from the din of the auditorium. The sound seems to come from above and grows steadily louder. Suddenly, as the noise peaks, a forest green Jeep Grande Cherokee explodes down through the ceiling, crashes nose-first onto the stage, falls forward, and lies upside down, the wheels still spinning and white smoke pouring out of the radiator. After several minutes a body begins to struggle from the wreckage. It is artist Chris Olszewski. While he untangles himself we see that he is dressed casually in a giant ceramic shell and a pair of jeans. He is covered in blood.]
Chris: [unfazed and yelling] Hey fuckers! Let's get something straight right now! Art is about three things: money, weed and tomahawks. Money first because if you don't have the money you can't buy the weed and if you don't have money or weed, you don't have anything to protect with a fuckin' tomahawk. [pause, pacing around] Now I'm sure you all can find some weed on your own. You don't need me for that. And you might think that because I'm a Native American that I've got loads a' tomahawks just lying around. Well, lemme tell ya, if you come over to my house, you're going to find diet Pepsi in my fridge and my wife yelling at me to make some money- so I'm here to talk about money.
[A student in the audience raises his hand.]
Chris: Yeah, go ahead chief.
Student: [standing] Could you use a gun?
Chris: What?
Student: Could you use a gun to protect your shit? [sits]
Chris: Listen buddy, you can do whatever the fuck you want, okay? Alright... Do you think we can just hold all the goddamn questions? Could we try that shit? I'm trying to tell you how to make some money and you're already worried about how you're going to spend it. [short pause] Hey! Tonto! [points at the same student] Yeah. Stand back up.
[At this point a fist, bleeding, punches through the center of Chris's eggshell chest, opens and whips a Chinese thrown star at the student.]
Chris: Try to catch this.
[Just as the words leave his mouth the star flies through the student's hand severing it at the wrist. The student screams as he is covered in a gyser of blood. He remains standing.]
Chris: Calm down. Just look at your hand.
[The student glances apprehensively at his nub only to find the hand returned and in a tight fist. The blood has disappeared.]
Chris: Alright, Sitting Bull, go ahead, open it up.
[The student opens his clenched hand to reveal a fresh, twenty-dollar bill. He sits with a look of astonishment on his face.]
Chris: Lesson number one: stars are actually money. You just have to work 'em hard enough. So get yourself some stars. [pause] Thing is... stars don't come easy, and twenty bucks doesn't buy a whole lot of weed when there's bills to pay. So you gotta do other things...
[Chris makes his way over to the washer and dryer, takes a beer bottle and shatters it on the side of the washer.]
Chris:...patriotic things.
[He bangs on the top of the dryer with his fist still holding the broken bottle neck.]
Chris: Lookaat!
[He whips the door of the dryer open and out rush a stampede of Great Plains buffalo with toothpicks for legs. Chris stabs one of the smaller ones with the broken bottle, removing a plug of meat and fur. The other buffalo continue to run aimlessly around the auditorium.]
Chris: Ya see this shit? This is what artists call material, Jack. Now when a canvas and a hunk of wild meat like this get together, God willing, with a few drinks in 'em and some soft music, they make what's called a painting. And you can sell a painting. [pause] For money. [pause] For weed. [pause]Ya see where I'm going with this?
[A student in the audience raises her hand.]
Chris: [squeezing his brow] Yeah, Interrupts-My-Shit, what's you're question?
Student: Yes. Hi there. I was just wondering. What if that painting doesn't sell?
Chris: Well, God forbid! You know what you do when that happens? [mocking] In a big emergency? Show the slides!
[The lights drop and Barry flips on a projector. Shown on the back wall of the stage is a slide of a small brick house.]
Chris: Next.
[The second shows Chris approaching the house. He is dressed in tweed suit pants and a jacket that barely covers the eggshell.]
Chris: Yup.
[In the next he can be see holding up a pink slip of paper. The next shows what looks like an argument between Chris and the homeowner.]
Chris: Yeah. Yeah. Past this. Just keep going.
[The slides advance showing quick glimpses of mild violence.]
Chris: Stop here.
[The slide shows Chris leaning forward his arms spanning the the doorway of the house, looking out, while in the foreground is piled with children's toys, heaps of clothes, boxes overflowing, lamps, a mattress.]
Chris: Oh, one more I think.
[The final slide shows Chris standing the the foreground, his arms crossed and smiling. Behind him, in white paint above the door reads: # 287 For Sale by Not Guilty.]
Chris: Detroit real estate is what happens. Any questions? No? Well, remember liberty kids. Liberty.
Audience members: ¡OlĂ©!
Michael Scharf- "I Love Systems"
I'd like to talk about this on Tues.
I love systems; corporations exploit systems and deform them to channel capital. I love habits; capital destroys habits so that implements must be replaced, which requires further raw materials to be drawn and further labor added, and fetishization and idealization to be the main quality of cathexis. I love cathexes; people murder and hurt one another because their drives have been pushed into fucked up images or ideas, either by genetic predisposition or by a variety of family pathologies, psychological or physical abuses, that often stem from economic factors, but cross class lines and can express themselves in large-scale non-egalitarian modes of power, as well as in their more familiar manifestations within the living space, a determiner of roles among those sharing it. Neglect, a pathology, results when unstructured time, which is now a kind of structure, is eroded by capital, which requires labor in order to accumulate, via the insinuation of value into cathexis as a result of consumerism, and not consumption, which is necessary. Even when actually coming into contact, people carry distorted images which they bring to their chosen objects, and they hurt these objects, which are people, because such images represent strong cathexes and demand to be reproduced. People also create systems specifically to coerce people into exchange, to force them to play prescribed roles which have real psychological and material realizations. These systems draw energy from libidinous dementias, from partially destroyed cathexes, and result, at best, in exchanges whose participants are profoundly alienated and which are mediated, however indirectly, by money, which was itself created when the direct comparison of the values of goods proved impossible, and is the basis for city life, a kind of idealization, which seems to be preferred by artists because of the kind of social contact it allows, because of the care that its infrastructure evinces, or has remnants of, and because of the kinds of work it affords. There is a little time to write. I am paid per hour for my cube labor, which involves writing, a “shit where I eat” problem, since writing is one way to resist the incursions of capital. But I am an agent. I love systems; they are but structures for action, for encounter and exchange, and come to life only when taken up, providing terms for decisions, terms that should be able to be accepted and used or rejected and reformed but are not, but yet not all of them are corrupt, although the rate at which they are corrupted as they arise, meaning those systems that do not have to do with law or state or corporate power, the lag time in which they are allowed to hang, poised and expressive, is shorter and shorter, as the movement of capital has become more and more efficient, part of which is due to computers, though studies dispute the actual gains. Systems must be changed from within by agreement or destroyed by revolution, which means destroying sets of images and the people who carry them, which is accomplished by agents, who are people, and replaced by other systems, but distorted images linger as traces embodying former sets of terms, in books and in pictures, in buildings and in testimony to be discovered and recovered, or reproduce themselves through genetic predispositions triggered by abuse. Power itself forms a current wherever there is more than one agent or its image, so that in the absence of state power or enforced legislation, which often appears to itself as a coherent, logical system directed at a collective good, but can also appear, even to itself, as an organized and perpetual structure for murder, in its absence, arising when one or another group, concentrated in a locality, has the power of enforcement without the rule of law, which is just as often abused, the results seem to be worse, as we know them from books and images, recordings and translations. Some argue that this is the case in parts of the world of which I have no right to speak, especially being a subject in a state that creates and acts on the indirect or direct demands for their exploitation, particularly in terms of labor power and raw materials, and in terms of culture and in terms of peoples’ bodies, their very lives. In the U.S. itself ideas and images have been, within some formations and often involuntarily, replaced with a more subtle brutality taking the place of the old, overtly physical and more directly linguistically transmitted subjection. There will always be exchange, the question is how to structure it, what system to use. People have been coerced into habits and cathexes that lead, directly and indirectly, to the exploitation of others, but this exploitation and its results are hidden from consumers, who must participate in the system or perish, ceasing to exist within recognized or vigilantly maintained alternative social formations, dying, though there will be a day when to be a consumer will not be a pejorative, for there will always be consumers as long as there are exchanges, and there will always be exchanges, but for now the exploitation and its results are hidden, so that responsibility for consumption is made impossible by more active participants in the systems, who produce them and produce the images of them, and work to shunt the capital into calibrated sinks, or accounts. Those with ideas for more efficient or transfixing systems can either work for corporations, or strike out on their own as entrepreneurs within legally defined structures, a decision which is represented as a kind of freedom. There are magazines that cover, that reproduce with words and pictures using raw materials plus labor power, including packaging and delivery, the imagining and actualizing, the building and maintaining, the reacting and the prescribing of system creation, cover it from the idea or image stage to the addition of capital, which allows systems to materialize, literally, and to shunt the needs, habits and cathexes of people, who put their money into weighted exchanges that concentrate it with the corporation or entrepreneur, which as a legal entity has discretion as to how and when it will again appear in the public domain. Often, because of psychology, and, currenly, because of poorly theorized neo-evolutionary demands, capital is concentrated and passed down among those whose genetic bases are most similar. I personally have benefited from this system in myriad ways. When my father became sick with Hodgin’s Lymphoma, he and my mother, 27 and 26 respectively, if age affects decision-making, took out a 100,000 dollar policy on his life, on which they were, with the help of other family members who had accumulated capital, able to meet the very high monthly payments as his condition worsened, and then improved, until his sudden death on May 15, 1974, after which the policy was paid in full to my mother. This policy was a partial image of the labor power represented by my father and reflected a bet by a corporation against his early death; that the labor he did, which was adjusting the habits and cathexes of people who were not able to function completely and efficiently within the system, arguably serving the ends of capital as well as of those, more directly, whose suffering he worked against, was not relevant. The apartment in which I live, in which I write this and which I own with my wife, who is 28, was bought with money directly generated by the investment of money from that policy, by the further accumulation of capital that resulted from the payment being committed to certain corporations, including Merck, Thermo Instrument, and Archer Daniels Midland, of which I had fractionary ownership, and is itself, the apartment, a form of acculated wealth, though its exchange value is dependant, like currency, on the market and easier to pass in the U.S. to people with similar genetic material or with whom legal relations are permitted. Writing this is a form of narcissism, now in wanting to insert myself in a debate over a magazine, but originally as a reaction to answering a questionnaire, which asked for certain cathexes and, indirectly, economic conditions to be named, thus aiding a kind of class consciousness; since the naming recalled an image or idea of a “life,” as a life is a construct made up of representations of decisions plotted over time and intimately bound up with the control of capital, the commonality of the terms of which led to narrative conventions, the questionnaire established a basis for comparison with the decisions, cathexes and degrees of control of the participants, all of whom are at least acquaintances through text-based exchanges. The expression of my cathexis with an image of my father, here and elsewhere “in my work,” can be said to be a luxury afforded by the capital that I accumulated as a result of his death, although the cathexis would remain, I feel, regardless of the amount of capital involved since it was not known to me, conceptually let alone with numeric specificity, when the cathexis formed, which allowed a kind of cathetic purity that is often idealized, the image of love pointed toward transcendent value, one that can trump the market, within literature and most religions, and within many actual lives, if I can speak of them, other than mine, but writing depends on material conditions unattainable in most. If I am allowed to speak of your life, a set of decisions plotted over time, it is a form of exchange; because of certain histories of exploitation, the subject position created by my relative control of capital and my physical characteristics encounters quite forceful and correct barriers to exchange in various contexts. Though they are often portrayed as protecting images of sets of physical characteristics or images of set of habits, called race and culture, gender and sexuality, such barriers are forms of resistance to the incursions of capital, because capital tries to keep as many of its mechanisms as possible hidden, including labor, a transcendental category, in that in most climates one cannot live without working or paying or forcing someone else to work, so that capital, an image or meme carried by people, makes use of psychological prejudice as part of its hidden mechanisms for exploiting labor; it blurs into such habits and cathexes comfortably and easily, through other ideas and images, and attaches itself to them without dissipation or diffusion, as well as targeting the barriers resistence to such images provokes. To target these incursions via economic analysis is the “class trumps race” theory, which can be extended to other categories, and which when implemented led to the splintering of the left in the late 1960s in the U.S. and to the attempted recovery of origins, previously subsumed by the promise of reform and of a better life,both of which are images, origins and promises, though when lived attain the status of memory and experience, testimony and impression, and then out to the endgame of economic self-justification. Such analyses are abstracted so as to locate the systemizing terms at work, finding them in appeals such as “France for the French,” which paradoxically allows a majority within a locality to feel that their genetic material benefits from redistributive action, though the complications of having 3,000,000 post-colonial citizens, if I may speak of them, particularly as a Jew, since Jews have been closely associated with the market and demonized via that assocation by Christians and others, leading many to convert or to become adherents of Marx, a son of converts who conceived of class consciousness as the royal road to revolution, but the presence of those citizens in France has led, because of the contradictions it heightens in certain images and ideas, to the creation of parties such as the National Front, which tries to define what the French part of “France for the French” might mean, and has certain distorted cathexes with that idea, though anyone can shop at Fauchon if clean. Similar movements exist. Class does not always seem to trump race, or gender, or sexual orientation, though this may still turn out to be the result of false consciousness, which most often today is applied to consumerism, and there is no right of return, a material re-creation of images, for anyone. Some theorists believe hetero- and homosexuality to be chimeras created by capital, and believe race and gender to be so as well, though one does not hear the latter spoken of as lifestyle choices, and medical research continues into their bases.
Saturday, March 29
Friday, March 28
Thursday, March 27
Tuesday, March 25
Saturday, March 22
spring break
so this is the things i want to do over break:
upload videos from class
think about next art event/show/thing
look at some stuff we might want to read or look at, etc. in terms video, movement, theory, artists, etc.
have an art sketch book get together to work on 2d or collaborative or crafts or make out.
find a unicorn
bake some pies or cakes
make my philosophy on life concise and communicable
stop trying to be so trendy and explore the merits of longevity in my actions
if you wanna do these things with me or want to add, lemme know!